Hormones makes us who we are. Or is it our psyche? Is anything true? What about the human biome; the millions of microbes that coexist within each of us? A study on the parasite toxoplasma gondii noted that they can inspire certain behaviors: attraction and repulsion, according to their impulse, not ours. When I had an overabundance of testosterone in my blood, was I a heightened version of myself… or was the hormone using me to become a more creative, truer expression of the human known by some as Brenda Ray?
Urge and urge and urge,
Always the procreant urge of the world.
Out of the dimness opposite equals advance, always
substance and increase, always sex,
Always a knit of identity, always distinction, always a breed of life. Walt Whitman